Pressure to be Present

Pause for a moment.  Allow yourself time to take a deep breath.  Look around.  Soak in the sensations of the moment.  Notice thoughts and worries racing through your head.

It appears more and more common knowledge that being present is vital to our mental health and well-being.  The trouble with us humans is that we have all these pesky “unwanted” thoughts.  While being present is beneficial, it bothers me to think of thoughts as unwanted.  Those thoughts we try to push away to be ever-present are, in part, what makes us who we are.  Those worries and concerns for our lives are perhaps proof of our sanity.

At 97 my grandma has developed dementia enough that she can’t live on her own. She has good days and bad.  The decline is not linear.  I am not attempting to put a positive spin on dementia, but I am trying to see the positives in a sad and trying situation.  My Grandma still remembers us.  That may not last forever.  Her dementia hasn’t made her agitated.  It’s estimated that 90% of dementia patients experience aggression, agitation, and depression.  She shows minimal signs of irritability.  In her confusion, she looks more childlike.